Is it better to be lazy and driven — in other words, determined to succeed with the least effort possible. Or is it better to be terrified and stubborn — in other words motivated by fear and stubborn enough to drag yourself through hell to get where you’re going.
Or is it better to be both?
That’s the crux of my time here in medical school – just wondering if I’ve done enough to get where I’m going. Wondering if I should have been studying 5-6 hours every day, day in, day out. Or have I managed to save enough of myself to make this next two years — the two years everyone has said are the real learning years — manageable.
I guess it all depends on how I did on my boards – so we shall see in a coupla few weeks.
I’m coming to the realization that I’m going to have to buff up my CV pretty heavily here. Now I just need to get into doing it. I’ve got a guaranteed fight on my hands in the next two years…I asked for interesting and challenging…
I’m getting it.
You make a really good point, and ask a very important question. Perhaps its a combination of both. Your workload seems very demanding, perhaps it finding whatever motivation you can to get through it, or doing whatever is the most healthy for you. Some people say that its a journey, others believe in the destination. I think its a series of destinations, but if you are so thoroughly dissatisfied with the road it took to get there, is there any happiness left in you to spare when you arrive? So, the journey is of equal if not more, importance.
Hang in there. You’ll be just fine.