Vocabulary Skills?

10 01 2009

So I saw a link that said Alaska Gov. Sarah Palin accused the media of “personal, salacious” reporting

I have one question…

Salacious?

How does she know what that word means? Does she know what the word means?

I never saw any reporting done regarding Gov. Barracuda that was “sexually lewd or obscene” (which is the definition of salacious).

Maybe she thought her bumbling, stammering through the Charles Gibson and Katie Couric interviews was hawt…

The librarian look she sported for the interviews: very attractive…

The strident “mama grizzly” who shoots wolves from helicopters, while indiscriminately, and un-eloquently spewing hard-right, christian fundamentalist, anti-everything except-white-male rhetoric: very unattractive, actually the exact opposite of “salacious”…

I’m sorry, but she jumped into the fray and unfortunately made herself and her state the laughingstock of America…

Better to stay quiet and let people wonder if you’re an idiot than to open your mouth and confirm it for everyone…





Insights from 1 year, 4 months, 2 weeks and 3 hours in

10 01 2009

- I need to study at a desk…

- I need music and light snacks to study with…

- I should preferrably be somewhat cool (temperature)…

- People cannot be walking by, nor tugboats for that matter – movement in my general direction is a poor predictor of successful studying…

- I cannot be trusted with a highlighter…nor a ruler and a pen…

- Always memorize the tables in the books…

- Always memorize the slides…

- Always memorize things that are italicized, underlined, bold, or have a catchphrase such as “it is important to remember…” or “it is dangerous to…” or “the patient may die if…”

- I should make algorithms using lab data/history/physical findings for each system and complaint…

- Animations make oodles more sense than textbooks…

- Pictures are good – words are a double edged sword…they’re sorta like electrolytes…or antibodies…

- It’s actually a good thing to live so close to school…Frustrating, demoralizing, alternately soul-crushing and soul-draining…but occasionally its’ sorta convenient…

- I cannot afford to not pay attention to things like laundry, haircuts, cleaning, writing, photography, eating, or exercise – if I don’t learn how to cram them in now, I never will…

- Every hour I need to stand up, stretch, breathe, and refocus myself…

- Writing and exercising is therapeutic…

- Lectures are absolutely worthless – attendance is in fact somewhat detrimental…small groups range from marginally beneficial to completely useless…

- Studying for boards is going to suck a lot…

- Medical school is designed to be an uphill battle the entire way – a series of seemingly endless struggles punctuated by repeated failures…

- I’m on a roll…





Zero 7

10 01 2009

Zero 7 is the perfect study music…really it is…

My favorite is the Garden Exclusives. Especially the live radio cuts – Sia Furler purring and growling over their smooth grooves is just what I need to keep me going.

Especially when they decide to just get funky and jam complete with distortion heavy piano and guitar. Loud drums…Raucous rock…

I have three words for it…

give

me

more…





I should probably say this…

10 01 2009

To all of my friends and family who is reading this.

I’m sorry if I’ve been short, or if in the future I am short with you. Medical school, more than anything, just by virtue of the sheer inefficiency of the process is extremely time consuming.

I think medicine is that way as well. It’s really too bad school isn’t more condensed and better run. It doesn’t need to take 2 years, and it doesn’t really need to take a long time to understand all of the basic science concepts.

But here it does. Here we are supposed to extract knowledge from a dry and overly verbose text. Not too much in the way of animations – funny how one simple animation with wisely placed captions and simple explanations and a few miniature review questions seems to simplify everything and make the whole process of learning “difficult” material easier to learn.

But seriously, I’ve been short with many of you.

I haven’t stayed in contact with many of you.

And you all deserve better of me – I’m truly sorry if I’ve hurt anyone.





Apparently I’m verbose

10 01 2009

I just read something that showed that the average wordpress blog entry was 250 words. Several times this month I’ve looked down and noticed I was well over 700 words. Well I apologize. I’m going to try to make my blog more readable – more content, less words.

It means tighter posts, more focused thoughts, hopefully more insightful – although striving for, what seems to me like some arbitrary number of words per post doesn’t absolutely mean I’m going to communicate in a more effective fashion.

Perhaps if within the first 100 words I manage to suck you all in, and then over the next 4-500 or so words I can keep you hooked, my “loong” posts won’t matter as much to my overall readability…hmm..

we’ll see

in case your curious – word count for this post…

128.





Soft on Crime vs. Soft on Value

10 01 2009

I was reading the newspaper today, during a quick little break and decided to delve into the comments for a few moments. Mostly because the teaser is so damned intriguing. The article is about three men who were shot in Seattle. The long and short of it is that someone shot them, and the victims knew the assailant. The police hadn’t quite found the assailant, but were looking.

Why I looked into the comments, I don’t know. But I found a few gems.

Harsher penalties is the answer. These gangsters are worthless liabilities to society and if they can’t understand what is expected of them then it is our duty to show them what is expected of them. The prisons are a cake walk for these habitual criminals. We have to turn our prisons into work farms and make these criminals regret being sentenced to “hard” time. Make them suffer through complete exhaustion.

and

And I’m supposed to care, why? Glad to hear they weren’t “innocent bystanders.” As long as they keep taking each other out without picking the rest of us off, let ‘em. Better to decrease the worthless population.

The emphasis in the above quotes is mine.

But statements like “worthless liabilities to society”, “prisons are a cake walk”, and “Make them suffer” aren’t exactly enlightened thoughts.

People might say that the persons leaving these comments are merely being hyperbolic – but I’d refute that. We have a myriad of proof that shows that people who are poor, minorities, and/or somehow not in the current mainstream are seen as worth-less. Unfortunately, the gentleman is right – when we stop viewing our neighbors and citizens as assets and truly expecting them to contribute to society as opposed to giving up hope and losing respect for them as humans – people become liabilities to society, liabilities that our strained society cannot afford to pay for.

Companies are laying off people at a breakneck pace – jobs are drying up, markets are shifting and terrified – and I’d say that a large part of the reason is because of our value system. We’ve forgotten how to value people. We’ve forgotten as a society to respect our neighbors.

Sentiments like “make them suffer through hard work” aren’t productive. They don’t do anything to enhance the person, or society. Hard work can be incredibly rewarding. Hard work IS incredibly rewarding. Ensuring that someone, who has already shown proclivities towards violence has a terrible time in prison isn’t going to stop crime. Rather it only “hardens” criminals. Forcing people to act like animals to survive isn’t the answer to eliminating crime. Forcing people to act like human beings is.

Prison is a necessary punishment. I agree that the person(s) responsible for the shooting should if convicted after a fair and impartial trial, should go to prison.

But lets’ actually ensure that the people in prison (yes, people) are productive to society. Let’s make sure that they have the skills, both technical and affective, to succeed in the general population once they are out of prison. Let’s make sure they never want to go back because they view prison as beneath them – not because they are rationally afraid of an irrationally brutal system.

We’ve added year after year to minimum sentences. We’ve added firearms enhancements to criminal penalties, we’ve cut back on the vocational and educational opportunities for incarcerated people for decades, fearful of being soft on crime – and all its’ done has made ex-convicts more desperate and fearful of going back to prison.

That translates directly into police having to deal with more desperate and hopeless people. People who act irrationally and in unexpected ways.

I remember sometime ago when I was working with the Fire Department. We went to a motor vehicle accident and upon arrival found a car, flipped over onto it roof, with bullet holes in random parts of the underside of the car. Shell casings littered the ground.

The people in the car were okay – two women and their three children. The youngest child was about 15 months old.

The bullet holes they reported, came from the man who after hitting them broadside and thinking he had hurt them badly, feared going back to prison – “Fuck that, I’m not going back” he was reported to have said multiple times, as he emptied a clip of bullets into their car.

Yes he should be in prison. But it’s wrong to ignore that fear – that fear that leads to more irrational violence.

They were lucky their car was a late model one with actual steel protecting them from the bullets. But others haven’t been.

Our criminal justice system woefully needs repair. You can’t rehabilitate people when they haven’t been habilitated in the first place. You can’t teach civics lessons in the colliseum with gladiators all around. You can’t learn peace if you constantly fear violence.

The only way we’re going to be able to truly be “tough on crime” is if we can figure out how to instill in inmates the true value of the wasted potential that unfortunately characterizes the lives of most of their lives…

We have to figure out how to value their humanity in order to get them to value others…

Without doing that, we’re doomed to repeating the same mistakes and expecting something different.

Didn’t somebody say that was the definition of insanity?





Perhaps a touch of Karma?

10 01 2009

My roommate is apparently super sensitive to the scents “liberated” by cooking.

Now I don’t make things that smell particularly bad by traditional American standards. I’m not cooking chitterlings or kim chee in the kitchen. Things like ground turkey and tomato sauce can set her into a tizzy.

So I try to be calm about it when she storms into the kitchen and turns on the completely useless ventilation fan above the stove that only serves to blow any smoke, steam, or other olfactory “goodness” towards the hallway leading to…of all places…her room.

I’ve chalked it up to differences in personal biochemistry and sensitivities. I’ve probably got a chemically desensitized schnauzz while her nose is likely more discriminating. No biggie. I’ve also anticipated the possibility that turning on the stove fan has a psychologically reassuring impact on her – it shows that I’m considering the potential detrimental impacts that feeding myself might have on her. So, usually, I just turn on the fan.

Well today, I made some liver and onions with pumpkin pasta – an experimental dish to be sure – and somewhat delicious – however it was without a particular, boquet.

I cooked, I ate, I cleaned – leaving a pan with some warm leftovers on the stove to cool while I studied renal pathophysiology.

En route to leaving the apartment she stormed towards the kitchen and in a gnawingly condescending tone asked me to “clean the pans because the oils seep into the pans and then I have to smell your food for the rest of the week.”

Now, two things to know about me.

First, I cannot stand being talked to like I’m a seven year old – probably because that was the only tone my mother used – it doesn’t just push a button – it punches keys like Ornette Coleman…or Art Tatum (yes Mike, subliminal shoutout)…

Second, I hate being asked to do things when I’m already doing something. When people waltz up to me and demand my time for their pet projects while I’m engaged and avidly concentrating (rare due to ADHD) on something, it does tend to drive me up a wall.

The combination was quite aggravating – and imagine that, distracting. It gnawed at my focus – the focus I’ve been trying to hone since the beginning of this new year. I read through the rest of the chapter, while simultaneously agonizing over whether I should just do it immediately, or stand up for myself and do it when I a) wasn’t busy and b) felt like doing it.

The internal deliberation took too long however – she returned, out of breath from her workout and immediately bolted for the showers – like she always does. I couldn’t tell if she was keeping her nose from curling up like she has resorted to doing occasionally, or if the smell wasn’t even there.

It no longer mattered. I realized that I had stuck up for myself by waiting until she had gotten back – and then I also realized that I could be above the almost entirely self-creating melodrama unfolding in my head and I could just wash the damned pot. Which I did.

I also happened to have headphones in my ears at the time, because they do tend to help me focus quite a bit – shutting out random noises and thoughts. So as I began to clean, she climbed into her “hot” shower. I however, didn’t hear the shower water running because of the headphones.

I began to scrub the pot first slowly, and had a little trickle of hot water on, and then decided to vigorously scrub it and throw myself into the scrubbing – since I thought it did provide an adequately mindless break from studying – and I’d finish I thought by soaking the pan in a shit ton of HOT water.

And so on went the hot water – full blast. For about a minute. I still feel guilty about wasting the water – another post about my ideas on that soon. But, right as I was finishing the 4th rinse of the pot, all to alleviate my roommates fears, the right earbud fell out of my ear.

And I heard the shower. And muffled cursing. About the “cold” shower.

Oops.

As I shut the water off, and turned around, it seemed like she was peeking out of the door – on top of the indignity of a cold shower, she’d forgotten her towel.

“Can you, umm… look the other way please?” she shouted from the bathroom.

“Oh yeah, sure, no problem.”

She scampered into her room.

I sat down and started to study again…and thought briefly about the karmic exchange that occurred there. Hope I’m not completely in the wrong…